#0: on turning 25

I, for a fact, have tried to write this multiple times over the last month.

And, I, for a fact, have failed, multiple times.

This is my last (maybe) attempt to write this first issue as a part of my passion project, which is, by the way, dedicated to this day.

December 18th.

If you don’t know yet, it’s my birth date.

I’ve turned 25 today. I don’t feel different yet. (has my brain not developed lol?)

I don’t feel different, but there’s a sudden fear, why, you ask?

25, in itself, seems like a big number.

Assuming that I’ll only be alive till 75 (best/worst case scenario), I’ve already lived 1/3rd of my life. And that makes me tear up a little.

Wait, but how is it even remotely related to this newsletter I’m sending?

(The Missing Puzzle, fancy name huh?)

So hear me out.

Me turning 25, and my curiosity, got the better of me, and I set on to explore what’s beyond black and white. What’s the grey area that most of us almost always operate in but are afraid to accept?

Like the time you knew it was a wrong thing to do logically but you did it anyway because your gut told you so.

Like the time you had that one more glass of alcohol despite knowing that you’ll have the worst hangover because it seemed fun.

Like the time you skipped a lecture, or like the time you were rude to someone.

Like, me turning 25, feeling scared about it, yet not feeling any different, just doesn’t make sense at all.

What’s beyond 25? What’s beyond the conventional?

How is it different from what I am, who I am now?

Guess, there are a lot of questions that need to be addressed.

All of this, including this newsletter, is a mystery in itself. 

There are a lot of unnecessary breaks, unnecessary words, and uncertainty and that’s exactly how approaching 25 feels.

Confusing, scary, uncomfortable. 

But, one change that I definitely want to make is not raw dogging things anymore.

At least not with things that are important, say, career for example.

To be completely honest, I’ve taken a lot of things for granted, maybe out of privilege. And I want to change that.

Turning 25 will be more like a hard reset. Like a phoenix rising.

I’m doing it at 25, maybe you can do it even sooner if you’re young (or even old). There’s still time. To take action. To stop taking things for granted. To just do the bit.

I don’t have any lessons, in case you were expecting that, but here’s a thank you for reading this. <3

PS: This is issue #0, more of a teaser on what’s coming. So stick around, and thanks for the patience. :)

PPS: You can find me yapping or sharing any relevant updates for this newsletter here.